The holy is right here
in this moment.
watching your daughter’s eyelashes flutter
as she pulls you closer
in her fairy dress and pearls,
cups her little hands so softly
around your ear,
and whispers a magical secret.
watching your son’s eyes light up,
talking with his hands,
wondering how they got so big,
listening to spy tales and adventures
he has in store,
asking you to fasten all the gadgets
around his tiny waist so he can run.
forgiving your husband
when you are angry and so very right,
taking your beloved’s hand
and choosing instead
to soften and let go.
memorizing the way he still looks at you,
wanting to make love to you,
wanting to make you happy,
wanting you to know how he sees you
embodying your power as you age,
fuller, rounder, sensual, beautiful.
watching your children walk away from you
into class for the first time,
shrugging their shoulders,
taking it all in,
looking at you,
looking back to their class,
and finding themselves, their place,
and your years of loving them.
noticing how your dad still calls you his little girl,
now softer, now hugging longer,
now moving slower.
seeing how all these years
your mom just wanted you to be happy –
silently, prayerfully, gladly sacrificing her life
feeling your bare feet in the cool grass,
the hint of fall’s arrival soon,
believing that every scar, every giggle,
every heartache, every long embrace
in this messy, imperfect, human form
all for you to have
and let go.
in this fleeting,
fragile, miraculous moment –
just as it is.
We can often go looking for healing, wholeness, and happiness outside ourselves, outside this very moment, when the holy – the sacred – is right here. And we have a choice — to pause and be here…or keep looking.
Something within us has always known that the divine is within. Happiness. Contentment. Delight. It’s all here within us. But the voices around us that sell us on something different can be quite strong. We can get lost, searching and yearning for connection, a sense of belonging, reassurance that we are OK from our world. We can get lost in the constant noise of daily life and feel like we are scattered and even frozen in “overwhelm,” unsure of WHAT to do.
And yet, this is what I am finding: over the years of deeply listening and coming back again to the whispers within me…I know the divine is right here within us, within the messy, “perfectly imperfect” moments of this human experience — just as they are. And when I LINGER HERE in THIS VERY MOMENT – turning my attention to the incredibly simple yet magnificent blessings that are right here – a deep sense of contentment arises. My heart rate drops. My nervous system settles. I am present. Deeply present.
Such experiences of “lingering here” encourage us to drop the “trying to find” the divine, find happiness, find contentment. Instead, we learn – slowly – that the holy has always been here and this life is so so short, yet full of everyday miracles.
We don’t have to do anything. Just keep opening. Keep softening. Keep resisting nothing. Keep returning “Home” – here to this present moment. Keep seeing the delight, the holy, the sacred in all of it. Yes ALL of it.
I believe this is possible — for me, for all of us — no matter how amped up your nervous system is. No matter the trauma you have experienced. No matter how you are wired. And it begins with just this breath. Just this moment of “lingering here.”
** Friends, thank you for all your lovely comments — here, on Facebook, and in emails. It’s a delight to know that the poetry I write resonates with you and inspires you. I write from a movement within me, a calling, to inspire this world to live with more delight, compassion, and connection in our everyday lives – however that may look for each of us. May these words awaken a deep sense of delight in you.
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